Go on Throw This Stone, into This Halfway Home: Shibahime Tsubasa’s Family Portrait

Although those earlier episodes of KareKano are concerned with the affecting minutiae of Yukino and Arima’s burgeoning relationship, in shoujo land rarely does ‘the course of true love… run smooth’. Enter Tsubasa in an id-fuelled maelstrom of pouts and scowls, resenting Yukino for digging her claws into Arima. While initially portrayed as yet another antagonistic cog fuelling the collectivist machine that is shoujo bullying, Tsubasa is in fact a pitiful figure who managed to see something of herself in Arima. Beyond humourous attempts at middle school wooing, they gravitated towards each other due to similar sorrowful pasts. Although Arima’s issues simmer beneath an immaculate veneer, ensnared in an increasingly convoluted web of self-loathing and expectations spun across the series’ entirety, Tsubasa’s are explored through an arresting two-parter.

“Tranquil Days That Felt Empty”: Arima Souichirou and Incongruous Blossoms

The establishing shot of KareKano’s eighth episode features an abandoned bouquet of cherry blossoms, petals solemnly strewn amidst a black background. The same piano piece that highlighted clandestine moments of emotional intensity during the first episode rise alongside “it was before I met you”, alluding to the wistful sentimentality of the past. The material of such a remarkably directed half-episode is concerned with depicting Arima’s first few weeks at school; affection blooming amidst the shadowy annals of his psyche while subconsciously striving to transcend blossoms blocking the path to self-acceptance. Otherwise ubiquitous imagery adorning many a graduation scene, the beautiful flowers signify fresh starts and new beginnings, blooming in tandem with the beginning and end of the Japanese school year.

“How Do People See Me?”: Miyazawa Yukino and the Looking-Glass Self

Among the myriad romantic comedies inundating the medium with their formulaic reliance on will-they-or-won’t-they nail-biters and divisive love triangles, almost twenty years on GAINAX’s Kareshi Kanojo no Jijou (KareKano/His and Her Circumstances) has stood the test of time through instead turning its gaze inwards. Broadly speculating on the fraught identity politics Yukino and Arima endure in the midst of social and familial turmoil, it proves to be a remarkably introspective character study arguably on par with Neon Genesis Evangelion – both of which have director Hideaki Anno on board. Through their relationship the pair grapple with the intricacies of learning to live for themselves, a thematic strand deftly weaved into the narrative from the anime’s first frame. Consisting of a white backdrop emblazoned with a suggestive question, it asks “how do people see me?”.

Spinning with the Stars Above: Beyond ‘Bury Your Gays’ with Yuri Kuma Arashi and San Junipero

“But everything is over when you’re dead…”
“It’s not over! What Kenji was trying to say is that it’s actually where everything begins!”

If I Could Only See You, from Hope Eternity Would Be Born: Beginnings in Yuri on Ice and Welcome to the Ballroom

I hear a voice crying in the distance;
Perhaps you, too, have been abandoned?

With a sword I wish I could cut
Those throats singing about love
I wish I could seal in the cold those hands
That portray verses of burning passion

Cast your eye over any seasonal chart and witness all those obligatory sports-orientated offerings, generally focusing on an insular gathering of plucky teenaged upstarts. The protagonist tends to be an affable everylead, getting along with club members (if there’s burgeoning animosity don’t worry, they’ll soon become firm friends) while stumbling into the alluring realm of a sport he has little experience with. Rivals sneer on the side as the gang aim for nationals, fists clenched all the while. Horizons swell with possibility, glittering with promise, the youthful exhilaration of achieving for the first time suffusing these traditionalist narratives. It’s the same thing again and again to the point where you could theoretically pluck any series from obscurity and play Sports Premiere Bingo, displaying your filled sheet with a bored expression, because really, how many times have you done this already? There’s only so much one can take of all the monotony which renders Yuri on Ice an anomaly, this behemoth which presence lingers seasons later as the charts turn and renew themselves into summer and beyond.

Spring 2017 Retrospective

Okay, so I didn’t stick to the whole monthly retrospective thing (mainly because I’d have to make an effort keeping up with airing anime as opposed to frantically catching up at the eleventh hour, a week before the new season hits – what a horrifying thought!). But could I at least muster up the effort to stick with seasonal retrospectives, a paltry four times a year…?

L-let’s not answer that.

Creative Control: Rewriting Your Life in My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness, Wandering Son, and Night in the Woods

Given the opportunity is there anyone who wouldn’t want to reshape their life? To be able to go back in time and correct your mistakes of youth, smooth out your imperfections, live without regrets – it’s an ability to be envied. While such a godlike power obviously doesn’t exist in reality, taking control of your life is indeed possible. My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness, Wandering Son, and Night in the Woods all feature protagonists with lives in need of reshaping. They are often clumsy and find communication difficult. They stumble, make mistakes, and are easily misunderstood. Yet all of them can find control in their lives through writing. A process both creative and documentary, writing can allow new perspectives on your experiences. It gives context and clarity. It allows the author to analyze and learn from themselves, and in this, grow. Though the past is set in stone and put down in words, the very process of doing so can be the first step in writing your future.

nana note: this is a guest post courtesy of the lovely alex (@_kokotomo)